popping that love out!

birthday mentel.

2009-01-21T15:36:00.001+08:00

happy birthday to you love. (:

and people, i might going china today. ):

in loving memories.

2009-01-20T15:25:00.002+08:00

Allahyarham
Muhammad Yusri bin Dollah.
aka Harry.
16.05.1987-20.01.2009

you were the best brother-in-law i ever met.
you went off so fast when all the people around you still need you the most.
you always makes people happy whenever we're down.
you left kak wanie, your family and friends in tears.
siapa nak jaga lala ngan kak wanie abg?
yanny sayang abang harry. ):
i'll pray for you to rest in peace.

she will miss you the most.

double the PMS

2009-01-19T15:20:00.004+08:00

i fought with mentel yesterday. i felt guilty that i punished him badly. i told him to do my household chores. then i asked him questions. we both were like crying together. its really really hard to see mentel cry cos he will never show his tears to you. im sorry mentel, i love you many-many hor.

we went town and i was so pissed off that he kept saying his tired and we argued again. and more, I WAS ACTUALLY FINDING FOR TOPSHOP in wisma atria. then again we argued, and again. i was like crying at macdonalds, so was he. super irritating sia he. he knows im angry but he still want to fool around. stupid or what.

after meal, we went down bugis cos there surely got topshop. i was happy went i stepped in topshop. but in the end, THE DRESS THAT I WANTED is no where to be found. BAGOS!!!

so we headed to bugis and i manage to get alot of accesories. i was actually looking for top for this coming mentel's 19th birthday. i want to go club with him, i dont care. i want means i want! he's friend dont want then their business lor. macam birthday aku pulak. where should i go? DBL O? rebel? powerhouse?

the girls thing!

2009-01-17T20:15:00.004+08:00

i went out yesterday evening with family. but minus off the siblings.
we went to expo and i told my dad i have no shoes for this upcoming graduation day.
as john little is having a sale there. CHARLES AND KEITH shoes are there too.
so cari jalan uh aku, beli beli~
haha, i bought this super black silk high heel and a mary jane high heel.
cuper chanteq and super cute until i walk around my house with those shoes.
jakon gitu lor.
super cheap plus branded too.

and to my dear girls;
im not sure where im going to, but im sure im going off but still long way to go.
super excited!! i want to go london can?!!
(:

a little effort

2009-01-16T10:12:00.003+08:00

taaaddaaaa!
atleast this layout looks better.
i edit more soon,
mum's wants me to open a new book @ OCBC.
as i might going to overseas following my auntie.
bye babiessss.

the loveee

2009-01-15T19:44:00.001+08:00

hot per? tapi muker dier macam ex aku siols!

birthday niece

2009-01-15T15:19:00.005+08:00

Happy birthday to my dearest niece.
Nur Insyira Nadhyra
she is 4 now. super irritating as usual.
she can be one of the comedian in suria one day.
i love you babygirl!

ouh, i went to j8 just now and went in to BYSI shop. as they put up a sign for sales assistant needed. but all the workers there are chinese. but it worth a try lor.
so i did, ass simple as that. they went remove the sign and tell me to go for the second interview.
i said thank you and went off. i dont think im gonna get the job as its all 20-30s ladies is working there. haiyak! so i asked my auntie about her job thats goes around the world. she might gonna bring me to london or KL if her boss lets me be her assistant. (:
(cross-fingers parying to get it!)

anyways, i slept over @ mentel's house for 3 nights.
thats why i never update lorr.
nyehe!
(the war ends.)

sorry

2009-01-11T14:17:00.002+08:00

i dont know what more can we do to save this relationship.
i've asked him for a break up yesterday.
how can i just carry on my relationship with him if he never have the initiative on calling me or atleast a message. he didnt contacted me for like 24 hours. and till now he havent call me yet.
so like waddahell right?!

maner tahu dier dgn betine maner ke aper ke? what a liar he was. i hate you!

4 days?

2009-01-10T20:33:00.002+08:00

i didnt get to meet mentel for like 4 days. and i missing him already. haiyoh!

arguement

2009-01-09T16:31:00.004+08:00

Let's make the love more stronger.

I love you and im sorry.

99 Facts About Me

FIRST THING'S FIRST.
1. Full name; Nur Hariyani Bine Mohamed Hamid
2. Nicknames; yanny, yan.
3. Age; going 19
4. Gender; Female
5. Where do you live; Bishan
6. Relationship status; Blissfully attached
7. Siblings; elder brother and elder sister.
8. Pets; all the fishes died!
9. Screen name; yanny hunny bunny

APPEARANCE
11. Hair color; golden blonde fringe
12. Hair length; shoulder lenght.
13. Eye color; dark brown
14. Height; 163cm
15. Piercings; 3
16. Tattoos; nahh.
17. Shoe size; 8-10
18. Jeans size; 27-29
19. Make up; MAC,Loreal,Revlon,Paris Bourjois
20. Dye your hair; yes.

MY FAVOURITES
21. Food; mom's cooking.
22. Drink; anything will do.
23. Color; skyblue, red, black and white.
24. Store; ALOT!
25. Kind of Alcohol; current fave; bailey's
26. Ice Cream Flavour; choco caramel.
27. Books; The unexpected developement.
28. Season; winter
29. Video Game; Dj max.

HAVE YOU EVER?
31. Smoked a ciggarette; yes
32. Done Any Drugs; yes.
33. Gotten Drunk; yes.
34. Gone Skinny Dipping; no
35. Bonged a beer; No
36. Had sex; waddahell?!! lol
37. Kissed the same sex; on the lips yes.
38. Done Anything Sexual With Same Sex; NO!
39. Eaten Sushi; yes
40. Broken A Bone; no.

DO YOU/ARE YOU?
41. Like your handwriting; not at all..
42. Have any bad habits; yes!
43. Hate yourself; not really.
44. Shy; yes
45. Tolerant of others; NO!
46. Aggressive or Passive; aggressive.
47. Have a Journal; yes.
48. Emotionally strong; mostly at night. mentel tahu!
49. Read the newspaper; yes
50. Confident; not really.

VIEWS & BELIEFS
51. Is there a god; Yes
52. Does he have a gender; shouldnt be
53. Do ghosts exist; Yes.
54. What about witches; no.
55. Miracles; Yes!
56. What do you think of abortion; pain, sin.
57. Premarital sex; nyehehe!
58. Life on other planets; martians?
59. Porn; cheats the movements.
60. Cosmetic Surgery; beautiful but pain.

CAN YOU?
61. Sing well; NO!
62. Play an instrument; no
63. Write well; no
64. Skateboard; i wish i could, nyaha!
65. Take a shot without a chaser; waddahell?
66. Say the alphabets backwards; no.
67. Snowboard; no!
68. Juggle; NO.
69. Split; no.
70. Draw; no

THE FUTURE
71. Plan on marriage; yes.
72. Kids; 2-4
73. And their names; Hazelyn Natasha and Hazreezal Naufal, CHEY!
74. Occupation; full time lazy housewife!
75. Where do you want to live; in a cute small house. dont like big, SCARY!
76. Big or small; small.
77. Do you want to live near people; yes~!
78. Long driveway or short; short.
79. Income; as many as possible.
80. Cars; volkswagen? correct the spelling please.

THIS/THAT
81. Walmart/Target; uh?
82. Chocolate/Vanilla; Chocolate.
83. Night/day; Night.
84. Mcd/BK; MCd
85. Cats/Dogs; Cats
86. Fruits/Veggies; fruits
87. Pillows/Blankets; Pillows.
88. Pepsi/Coke; Coke.
89. Alcohol/Weed; alcohol
90. Reading/Writing; Reading.
91. Biggest fear; lost my mentel.
92. Compliment you get often; makan macam babi! hahaha.
93. What would you change about yourself right now; my nose, my body!
94. Regrets; nothing for now.
95. Gotten arrested; nyeheehehe!
96. Are you ticklish; not at all.
97. Longest relationship; around 20 months?
98. How much TV do you watch; Rarely.
99. What color is your bedroom; lime green and apple green.
100. Are you happy; not really.

I TAG
ALL MY BABIES IN MY LINK BOX!!

lerthagic effect.

2009-01-08T13:30:00.002+08:00

today is this idiot's birthday and no one is following he's commands on going karaoke and club to partaye on his bloody birthday. nyehe! kesian member!

oh! yesterday i went to follow my sister to shop. nyehe! bought cotton bag and long sleeve. thats all. gees! i miss bf. now im super the boring lor~

kaypo-tiam

2009-01-07T14:18:00.004+08:00

"who's the culprit that told the parents about these pictures? and thanks to you, we got the blame! if you're not rebellious enough to do whats not suppose to be done, then shut your mouth up and MYOB. goodness, i dont own your 'obedient' blood. NYEHAHA!"

my friendster shout out. serve you right, busybodies!

mentel just had his haircut yesterday, and its super cute. like finally! super short and cute. i like when my mentel's hair is short and neat. cute lor~ oh oh! did i tell you that he pierce his ears again. funny you know this fella. he was scared at first when i told him his ear holes havent really close. so still can go through. then he was like, NO NO! B PAIN! funny right?

then i pierce for him back, then he was like. eh! pierce already? -.-" stupid or what? then yesterday i was surprise that he went to use ears stick to prevent from closing. okay, so typical not good english yanny!

cute keper!

oh oh! before i forget. today is my big brother birthday. and he's turining twenty.
20, so old yet still want to act young. stupid!

cookie monsters.

2009-01-06T10:27:00.001+08:00

guess what?
KAKAK YANNY DAH TAHU BUAT CHOCOLATE COOKIES UH!
LOL!

footwear!

2009-01-05T18:51:00.002+08:00

mentel's nike sb.

soon gonna get this for myself.
then we can go out telling people on how much we love nike.

cos me and him already owned this nike slippers. cool or what?
but thats not our slipper colours. only thats the model of our slippers.

the downs

2009-01-05T14:02:00.004+08:00

last night, i argued with mentel over message and calls. i was angry that he didnt call me or message me at all. i swear i threat him when he stop messaging me. i told him you better reply or else we break up. chey! sayang punyer pasal, hamba allah nie reply jugak.

what do you feel when you asked ur bf this,"so you want us not to communicate at all uh?." its really a heartbreak thing when he agreed on the question. he told me that he was sorry cos when he's tired, he always get irritated easily. blah!

mentel, im sorry that i was being so rude saying this and that. but people around us is proud of you that you take a real good care of me. like how angry you are, you never even touch or hurt me. instead, you said million times of sorry. you're unlike anybody else. i know youre not the typical gentlemen, but atleast youre average and doing the best you can to save this love fairytale of ours.

yesterday night was quite a pain in the feet. i really mean feet! this post will be quite irritating. so be ready. i dont always take good care of my feet. so there's this three corns on my feet. one on the left and two on the right. i didnt know how it occur. so, abang harry(my sister's bf) and my dear sister remove this corn from my foot. i swear its painful! an there's two hole on my right foot. ha ha! major operation room held on my old bedroom. cool or what? thanks doctors.

miss chicken.

2009-01-04T13:08:00.005+08:00

not meeting mentel today as he have this thanksgiving ceremony for his late aunty. its a good thing that yesterday i surprised by going his house lorr. haha!

so bored.
want to go out? call me lorr.

that blonde fringe and nasty face plus the earings that mentel bought for me.
and now i misplace that earings! FUCKEN SHIT!

bummer

2009-01-04T08:56:00.001+08:00

the ruffled white dress.

i will make a proper type out soon. (:

the following day

2009-01-02T12:40:00.002+08:00

today mentel sent me home then we went out again after that. meet reza, aideel and adawiyah. went for a shisha break and i brought i huge earings. nyhahahhaha! okay im tired bye!

the beginning of 2009

2009-01-01T12:23:00.002+08:00

just giving the ruff ideas.

so i had fun on the COUNTDOWN. i met mentel first at toapayoh mrt. then we proceed to esplanade. on the way to esplanade, that was in the mrt. i sat beside my fucking enemy in class. YOUSHEN, and he thought i never saw him. but instead i did! and i laugh my ass off when i saw him. dumbell buduh!!

then we meet up with reza and apul infront of DXO. while waiting for the fireworks, we bought snacks and all. we also geting ready to pop up out party poopers. counting down then the fireworks.. i tell you! super totally ultra mega awesome!!! haha.

as a promise from mentel, yes we went to downtown. i went high with BAILEY'S and only i got tipsy cos i dragged alot.. && i met imran from BST, shaik shaiful my sexy ass ex-bf, Q, yuhanis, taufik bear(nurul ain the bitch's cousin), yuyul, nizam and aslinna. mentel dislike the place and i bet iw ont go again next year. fuck lahhhhhhhh!!!!!

then i slept over naz house. i was a little shagged but upon hearing that MIL gonna cook chicken chop. i wait lorrr... then i slept after eating the chicken. i slept for about 12 hours till tmrw. HA HA!

Happy 2009 earthlings.

2008-12-31T19:15:00.006+08:00

2008 was not a really good year for me. the only thing that makes me feel good is im legalized. the feeling of being 18 was good. club, smoke and drink. it was good though. i felt free, i feel me!

but when come parts to L O V E, i was a little weak. i fell in love with mentel when i was mid 17. he was my classmate. he's shy, loud, irritating and lovable. he own a bad boy image. not matrep lah. but more to rocking stuff.

he was the first ever boy that i never try to be unloyal. but instead, mentel has been such a jerk back on june 08. i didnt expect that things got worse. he wanted to patch back with his ex gf. he DIE-DIE want to patch back her. so i broke up with him and so he tried on WOO his exgf back. maybe, luck is not on his side. she rejected him and he came back to me. i was afraid that he will do the same thing again, but nahh.. he prove me wrong. he did change for good. but i was kinda feel weird when i noticed that every single of my letters, messages and pictures he didnt delete or throw it away. when i asked him why, he said he dont know. and he continued saying that he even ever made a picture video of us. but he deleted cos he dont want to show anybody. DUE TO HIS EGO! dumb boy.

now lets make a new era/resolution for 2009;
- license on 2B.
- KR or GILERA.
- a full-time stable job as a retail asst.
- get a good body shape.
- whiten up body contour.
- get mentel a bag for his 19th birthday gift.

I would like to take an opportunity to say to my dear readers.
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!
(:
love you people!

counting down the hours, minutes & seconds.

2008-12-31T08:43:00.003+08:00

today marks the last day of 2008. so cant wait for the upcoming event. i mean, we'll getting older and more more to maturity. but i want to be 27 cos mentel say he will only propose to me when we're 27. fucker that boy! && my relationship with him gonna be ONE YEAR OLD. happeyy~!

oh! i get to talk with mentel yesterday night. but only for a while. itu pon not good conversation. i cried, only mahathir knows why. should not elaborate uh. i dont want to end up crying for small things. ):

If only you knew... Everytime I see you, im speechless... breathless. Whenever I have the chance to see you, I'd take it in an instant. If you knew how often I thought of you, you'd be blown away. If you knew that I compare everyone else I come across to you, you'd be blushing. But if you knew how badly you hurt my heart and how whenever I see you I just want to break down and cry... you would feel so guilty that someone so "special" to you has to feel this unbearable pain... even worse, you're the person causing it.

he dedicated this to me

2008-12-30T16:26:00.002+08:00

Lyrics | Sum 41 lyrics - With Me lyrics

MENTEL<3

2008-12-30T15:12:00.006+08:00

BOYFRIEND = MENTEL
if fitri calls iz sepet,
then im calling nazrul mentel!
i miss mentel.
((:

there's so many things crossing in my mind right now.
what's my mentel's doing?
where's our NYE celebration gonna held?
what's gonna be on our very 1st year celebration?
so many right?

ouh anw, ive dyed my fringe blonde. haha!
boring lah, so i dyed.
i bet that mentel gonna say.
'b ni macam minahrep sey.'
haha! where got, im simply yanny.
and im the only yanny that is not a minahrep .
not like those small girl-girl lor.
name nak step bagus jer. tuh lah ini lah.
haha! bullshitting is my job!
not happy, your business lor.

mom says my eyes is getting worse due to sleepless nights.
ive own a very bad eye bags and dark circles.

He may not be the most attractive, he may not say all the right words, but when I see him, I know he's the one that can make me smile, laugh, and cry all at the same time.

everything is possible.

2008-12-30T09:02:00.004+08:00

i got a very gooooooood sleep yesterday afternoon till night.
haha! i woke up, i filled up my tummy.
after eating, i ate this sleeping pill so i can sleep again.
so i get my sleep at 12+ and woke up at 4+.
im still wakey2 till now but i felt super tired.

i dont think im gonna meet naz today nor tomorrow.
haiz. i miss that boy.
i wonder whats he's doing.
=.=

the past should not be put up anymore.

2008-12-29T15:23:00.003+08:00

i feel bad the other time i was talking about naz's aunty. she just passed away today. it was that fast. she was having a heart attack plus stroke on saturday and today she passed away. i just hope god's doing the best things for her. amin.

so now he's not coming and i wasted my hours by doing azza's blog. she dont know how to edit her blog. so i did for her lor.. now very pretty already. i just hope she likes it lorr.
and she owe me nasi ayam hahaha!

im bored, maybe i should sleep now.
._______________."

crazy idiot love this.

2008-12-29T12:07:00.001+08:00

lets make it more happening!

2008-12-29T08:56:00.005+08:00

i always do no matter how much pain i get from him.
naz didnt call or message me through out the sunday.
the day before, he told me to bare cos his parents dont let their children to use their hp that long.

For your information, i own a relationship that is less fortunate.
we dont get money as long as we like,
we dont own a job.
but we do really looking forward for january as that will be plenty of vacancies.
should be uh? i hope so.
so anyway, eventhough we dont own alot of money.
we still love each other and make stupid surprises.
like how he buys me FOOD! yummy~

its so early in the morning.
im actually waiting for 9.30am to watch the ellen degeneres show.
its a very good variety show.
must watch it!

i might be meeting naz at 4.
pray for me he will come bishan. nyaha!

like 2 more days and we're officially ONE YEAR!
i really cant wait lor. haha! i wonder what's gonna happen? hmmph!

I really think there's a reason that I like him so much. Like something is telling me not to let him go. Every time I follow my heart... it leads me to him. I mean... what other explanation is there. Why is it that he is all I can think about? Why is it that no matter how upset I am... I see him and I can't help but smile? Why is it that when he smiles at me... I get that feeling in my stomach? And even when he'd broken my heart, and hurt me as much as anyone could ever hurt me... when he lied to me... and I hated him... why then did I still feel those same feelings? Answer me that, and then I'll tell you why I let him hurt me so much.

forever and ever, baby!

2008-12-28T14:21:00.004+08:00

yesterday was quite okay,
met naz only for about 2 hours.
we laugh, quarreled, cried plus tired.
first we went to junction 8 as he wanted to buy jelly black bangles.
then he offered to buy my burger at the pasar malam.
i tell you! i love this boy cos he always never forget to buy me food!
then slack around my block area.
both of were like playing PSP together.
we played DJ MAX.
then he went home at 10.30 sharp cos i want to watch teevee.

something big happen after he went off a few hours.
we heard a huge crash that make us stunned and looked out the window.
there's a hit and run situation at the carpark.
this idiot went to crash 4 cars and my father's bike at the same time.
stupid right? all my neighbours came down kaypoh2!
very very the kecoh lorr.
the funny part was, ambulance came when no one was actually hurt.
LOL!
TP and the police were really really late.
everybody keep on taking pictures.
very funny, like ligtning strike i tell you.
flash here and there.

i miss my cousin alot.
Muhd Firman Bin Juriadi.
i wonder how much long will he be coming home.
His fiancee, daughter, his families miss him very much.
Que says he wont be going back so soon.
i wonder why?
i just hope he's not doing anything stupid.
seriously!

hungry monster

2008-12-27T16:19:00.002+08:00

im super headache and super hungry. stupid me waiting for naz to come. i was planning to eat with him in my house but someone just been hospitalized. his least favourite aunty. he was force to go or else that aunty will start her MENGAROT! argh!

i feel like meeting in novena since he's in tan tock seng hospital. i wanna go velocity. its so freaking long ive never been there. but surely he lazy. stupid boy!

so now, im eating karipap! yes, i feel better with just one bite. hahaha! im super bored now. people, START LAYAN-ING ME!

tired tired!

2008-12-27T11:38:00.003+08:00

so here's something new. i slept early as father was freaking irritating. he expecting me to sleep early and not to play psp nor chit chatting on the phone. so i slept at 11+ and wake up at 4.30 sharp in th morning. as a result and due to waking up at 4AM, i played psp andmy sister's phone game. nyahaha!

i might be meeting naz today. parents are going johor later.

why oh why?! saturdays are so suppose to be happening. but not for me. i will always end my day with bored bored bored. super irrit! i feel like dozing off now. but i cant cos im meeting naz at 4pm. dont want to overslept cos later member pra minyak. -.-"

GRADES!

2008-12-26T18:52:00.002+08:00

imy, naz. im so bored. ive been stuck at home for hours. and im super duper bored. i didnt get my sleep right.

i called wintai again just now. i lied and give reasons why i wasnt at home. they told me to waet till tues. so no going out after 4pm. -.-"

ouh ouh! my GPA is.

1.446!

misses

2008-12-25T19:53:00.002+08:00

christmas stay at home.

thought of meeting naz. but never. PERIOD, pfft!

im bored. i wonder whats gonna happen on new year's eve. counting hte days and POOF! happy 1st year anniversary to me. so cant wait lorrr.. (((:

We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

band bang!

2008-12-25T09:19:00.001+08:00

fucken shit those boys.

oh anw, merry christmas people.

what's the rush?

2008-12-18T21:07:00.006+08:00

naddia's future bf. can uh babe? haha!

im in reza's chalet now. bored so i blog as reza brought his lappy. good boy!

this event is very horrible, reza's sister's friends are like the boss and we cook and clean the place while they happily watching teevee, seating around popping the party poppers. -.-" i feel so sad for reza as he become the banglah for the day. sad sad.

on a lighter note, atlast i got the picture i wanted.

the guy whose have the same features as nick cannon. cute right? i know.

naz & aideel went to fetch epul at the bustop. im bored.

yah lah, christmas coming. i wonder whats our plan. i just wish we will be going to clarke quay like we did last year. so lomatik lorr. i just miss those days. ((: just cant wait whats the plan for that actual day.

oh i went to my interview just now. i dont think im going to get the job. i was tired that i keep on "gagap"-ing. geesh! i just hope i get the job. so sian~

i love boi-prend.

oh! want to see my embarrassing picture? laugh all you want, i dont care.
hahahah!

envy? please bitch!

2008-12-18T08:00:00.004+08:00

im so cant be bothered lah kan. people keep making their profile private. i wonder why? due to envy? popularity? face fact, we are all human which we all have the same things. not literally same. gosh! your bf, are nothing. i lead my life with my bf. do whatever you want in your friendster or your "babybucukboifyy". urgh! delete whoever you want. coz in other ways, i just dont care lah kan. that girl seriously got issues!

i feeling a little shaggeddd. coz i havent been sleeping well. like i said before, i hate holidays. im having a job appointment at 2.30 and really hope they give me an opportunity to work. i'll be super happy + super glad = super JYEAH!

my "babybucukboifyy" (-.-) aka naz, should be sleeping like a piglet. you know, i love the smell whenever he wakes up. busuk + bacin = i love you boy.

maybe after the interview, ill be meeting him at his house. then we drag out butts to pasir ris as reza's sister's is making a chalet. the good thing is, strictly no parents are allowed till on friday. aku suker, aku suker!

eh wait wait! im laughing at those small girls right now. not that two bitches. the ones acting like one minah rep. padahal sekeping papan! kecoh oi!

http://profiles.friendster.com/nadbeylowsiol
http://profiles.friendster.com/adeqbabe
http://profiles.friendster.com/baybieayukiesiowtiisatsat

such a disgrace.

Yes, I know youre wanted by many, but just think about it...you know I'll always be the girl who loved you more, I'll always be the girl who was there for you always, I'll always be the girl you feel the most comfortable with, but I can promise you this... I won't always be the girl who waited their whole life to try and make you realize it.

never back down

2008-12-17T18:51:00.001+08:00

those bitches. please...! i really hope they read my blog. i swear i dont give a fuck care on them. they are like one small kids and im playing along with them.

i miss nazrul cos he's missing out the actions im doing to this girls. (:

super whore

2008-12-17T13:54:00.003+08:00

this is nurul ain the girl i hate the most! but its was a good thing that she got fuck with my friend! padan muker kau!

then this is nur hanina kanina. the girl who muka tk tau malu also. come and sleep alone at my bf's house. -.-"

The spaces between your fingers were created so that another's could fill them in.

2008-12-17T12:54:00.002+08:00

guess what? i didnt get to meet naz yesterday due to my sleepless nights that i woke up at 6.30pm. BAGUS yanny. keep it up the good work. tomorrow is naz's mum's birthday and im not getting anything for her. cant be bother as a D-I-L-wannabe. nyaha!

anyways, ive been a stalker for wingtaiasia's company. i kept calling them to check whether they found my application form. -.-" okay, padahal call setakat 2 kali ajer. i have to call then back at 2 as they having their lunch. ):

i really hope to get a stable job as a retail asst. im taking as a full-time actually. cant wait! seriously so cant wait!

minimal doze off.

2008-12-16T10:14:00.004+08:00

oh my. im tired but i cannot sleep. i bet mama gonna force me to wake up later at 2. haiyak! im soi gonna be tired. meeting naz soon. so cant wait but i need my rest. oh! ive alarm my clock at 11 so that i can call wing tai. i want to work lah dey~ so freaking boring at home. i need to be independent. my own money, own self shopping. ahhhh~ thats life. not like this. being like a worthless woman. pfft!

pray for me please.

the night is still young

2008-12-16T07:48:00.003+08:00

meet safrinah the birthday girlon that thursday. i bet she cant forget that very moment. its kinda cool to have colleagues who really click with you and all.

so anyway, sorry for not updating for the past days. nyeha! i went to The Arena on last thursday(ladies night). it was a very meaningful day for safrinah as it was her 19th birthday. (: we do had alot fun. at 3.30 the clubs stop and we headed to riverside. the boys were super crazaye! at 7plus we proceed to the bustop and i headed myself to..

his house. HAH! for like 4nights? im always hungry nowadays and im gaining my weight back. naz been calling me boncet. wadever lah boy! you still love love me, i know. and you know you still pamper me with FOOOOOOD!

back then, when i slept in naz's house. i saw something that i didnt expected to see. i just dont know where to start and i dont wish to say about it coz it might hurt you. i just hope you realize that your boyfriend is not faithful with you. doesnt matter how long you are with him, its about trust. im sorry, i just dont want to be the problem maker. i wonder if she ever saw naz's slept with nina. (not making love, just sleep)that nina sial! pfft! NUR HANINA KANINA YOU!

talking about nina, theres this girl named fya. haiz. why lah why? those small girls always "rosakkan relationship orang?" fya lah, sabrina lah, nina sial lah, ain sundal lah. the one i put extra comment means the one who wants my relationship with naz to be torn apart. but that was before lorr. but anyway, that fya has been a bitch since forever. this bitch seriously got issues! her puki i dont know how many guys has been connecting it already. my sister have some problems with this 15-years-old slut. -.-"

other then that.

i miss this senorita of mine. i wonder hows shes been doing with her big perot. gosh!

If I could give you one thing in life, I would give you the ability to see yourself through my eyes, only then would you realize how special you are to me...

sleepless

2008-12-11T11:15:00.002+08:00

gees! i only got to sleep for two bloody hours. i talked with naz till late 4 am. i cant really sleep well now. thats why i hate holidays. surely got insomnia. i swear i hate this. gosh! now im sleepy.

oh oh!

happy birthday to BIBI.
who have just turned 18 today. and she's freaking happy right now.
haha!

olden days.

2008-12-10T17:24:00.004+08:00

i miss school. i miss the fun. but minus off the bad moments.

today stuck at home like shit. planned to go search for jobs but someone ditched. -.-''
maybe going tomorrow with naddia. gosh!

i might be going to club tomorrow. yay! i cant stand with my dad and mum irrit shits! so cant wait for the night! sweet!

kau memang sentiaser blur boy.

You will always be the answer, when somebody asks me what I'm thinking about.

pirated movies.

2008-12-10T00:34:00.002+08:00

i met kakak kesygan ku today, CASSANDRA! haha. i miss her badly and she treat me milo dino and thosai paper. i was actually cravings for thosai. haha! thanks kak.

after that i met nazrul at his house and plan for that day was to watch two movies. Twilight and senario the movie. twilight was freaking nice i tell you! its a love between a human and a vampire. coolios!

anw,
i love bf. (:

You know you're in love when you don't wanna go to sleep at night because your life is better than a dream.

love and beyond

2008-12-07T15:58:00.003+08:00

i was known as Rihanna fake from naz sister because of my concave hair.
-.-"

at last ive got my ruffled dress. nice. (:

yesterday night, met kak wanie in amk as she was searching for abg yus. hahahha! funny, naz and me followed her. but at 11.40plus naz went off. takot tertinggal bus gitu lor. (:

tight at 12 abg yus came to work and he talk about why and all. then we wlked back home from amk. exercise gitu lor!

i miss bf. ):

posto posto

2008-12-06T11:10:00.003+08:00

breath taking.

im freaking tired. dad wants me to be awake cause maybe postman is coming. -.-" walaowei! then later im going out some more. so lame. so boring.

i might be getting my white ruffled dress today. swapping with this girl. okay uh, not that bad. just a simple normal dress. (:

naz's probably sleeping. haiyer. so lame lah that boy~ sleep sleep like piglet.
-.-"

God gave us two ears to hear, two eyes to see and two hands to hold. But why did God give us only one heart? Because he wants us to find the other one.

birthday boy.

2008-12-05T22:02:00.006+08:00

feeling feeling tourist gitu lor.

today was a boring day for me. naz and me didnt enjoy that much. but it was quite okay. we went to amk hub to watch looney toons. last saturday we watched sesame streets. naz layankan kebudakaan aku. lol!

Md. Sani Bin Salem.
Happy 19th birthday boy~!

blissfully.

2008-12-04T14:29:00.004+08:00

ive been scolding them since naz been lying and reza was at his back all along. apologise accepted??

last monday was my eleventh anniversarywith naz. it was quite sweet that he kissed my forehead and told me happy 11th months b. HAHA! act romantic ajer nie budak!

i should tell you this;

SCHOOLS OUT!
SCREAM AND SHOUT!

yes uh! ive finished my 2 years course in ITE and im very very happy plus sad as well. gosh im gonna miss my fella classmates. boohoo+yayness!

anw, see ya around. (:

I may not get to see you as often as I like. I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night. But deep in my heart I truly know, you're the one that I love, and I can't let you go.

belated!

2008-11-28T13:49:00.003+08:00

im sorry i was late. so to make up for my mistake.

HAPPY BELATED 18th BIRTHDAY !

AN'NADYA BINTE AN'NAHARI!

semoga allah panjan kan umur mu dan murah rezeki.
amin. (:

lies and loves.

2008-11-28T13:17:00.003+08:00

i had a huge fight with naz in the morning. i gounf out he lied to me AGAIN?! waddahell right? i know. but its okay now. im not meeting him today. lazt bum to school. cos i slept at 5 woke up at 12. -.-" i bet aidil gonna scold me to death!

im gonna try on my luck going to junction 8 cotton on. haha! so near my house. wish me luck!

I wanna be remembered as the girl who always smiled.
the one who could always brighten your day.
even if she couldnt brighten her own

big girls dont cry.

2008-11-27T20:47:00.003+08:00

and another new layout. haha! the previous layout was done in school. so was abit like hancai boncai. haha. now then double okay right?

anyway, there's this buyer wish to get my clothes and asked for a trade. yeah! i took a ruffle white dress. the good point is, she lives near my school. but the shirt is with fitri.
-.-''
i wonder where's fitri. she off her phone now. try again later. god let her be free tomorrow please! thank you.

so people, keep the tag going. (:

2008-11-24T17:32:00.002+08:00

i dont know what happen to my last skin. but now ive change so okay lah now kan? so keep the tag going (:

hatred love.

2008-11-20T14:19:00.003+08:00

there's so much hate to put on my love. i hate his attitude most probably because of his irritating attitude thats always makes me want to shout shout! grr. i love you, ass.

i didnt attend school lately. lazy bum as usual and im not meeting naz today. ):

2008-11-19T10:04:00.003+08:00

yesterday, i had a multiples and more more quarreling sessions with naz. lies, love and mums?well? thats normal in love but how can we possible make it with this kind of obstacles then we're facing now. all he knows to end everything with money and all. HELLO?! my life and you still can say like that?!

You have no idea how much pain you have felt until you look in to the eyes of the one you love and you see nothing...nothing but the glare of light.

love like this.

2008-11-17T20:30:00.004+08:00

naz has been expecting me to wear more to skater girl. well? i wish to wear like that till ive found a job so that i can get the nike sb shoe so that both of us can wear the same time. cute gitu lor~ haha!

2 more weeks and im goona be a real aldult. not a schoolgirl anymore. im planning to get it ite bishan next year to get a better course as naz gonna concentrate on his national service by march. sad me. but its okay, i can go party with my ladies. [as if i dare] lmao!

tomorrow, comic strip is coming to my school performing. jyeah! its been ages i never attended to ska gig. this time the band is come to me. how i wish if we can skank in school. haha!

2008-11-17T12:01:00.001+08:00

i took it from a website. read it girls!

Dear Girls (from us guys)...

*Don't assume that guys won't care where you are, because we do.
It makes us feel secure to know that our girlfriends aren't off flirting with guys we've never heard of.

*Also, don't talk about your ex-boyfriends.
We never have, nor ever will respect or like them, nor do we want to hear about them.
When you do, you're asking your boyfriend to be jealous.
You're asking your boyfriend to lose trust.

*On that, don't hump everything that walks into the room.
We don't care if you talk to other guys.
We don't care if you're friends with other guys.
But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.

*Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/ cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.
Don't tell us we're wrong.
We'll stop trying to convince you.
The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
Yeah, you can quote me.

*Don't be mad when we hold the door open.
Smile and say "thank you."
Let us pay for you.
Don't "feel bad."
We enjoy doing it.
It's expected.
Smile and say - everybody together now - "thank you."

*Kiss us when no one's watching.
If you kiss us when you know nobody's looking we'll be more impressed.

*You don't have to get dressed up for us.
If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have, put on every kind of makeup you own.
We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT you are.

*Don't flirt with guys when we're not around.
We'll find out. Trust us.
We have eyes everywhere.
And when we find out, we're pissed.
Not necessarily with the guys you flirted with, more-so with you.

*Don't take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.
Don't get angry easily.
Stop using magazines/media as your bible.

*Don't talk about how hot Tom Cruise or Brad Pitt is in front of us.
It's boring, and we don't care.
You have girlfriends for that.

*Whatever happened to the word "handsome"?
Why does everything have to be "hot/sexy"?
I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with "Hey handsome!" instead of "Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy" or whatever else you can think of.
Claiming girls or guys to be "hot" shows immaturity.

**Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, don't wait for him to change.
Ditch his sorry, disgrace-to-the-male-population ass, and find someone who will treat you with utter respect.
Someone who will honor your morals.
Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.

2008-11-16T15:26:00.002+08:00

love was getting good to bad. nothing seems right and everything was my fault. maybe i was just to over-reacted? i just cant bare being not equalize and all. if he can do, why cant i? i hate the words whenever you said, ure a girl? so? FUCK THOSE WORDS!

why cant we be together for 24hrs? is that so wrong? i dont find it wrong. if im too bore for you, then im sorry. better off find someone better. cos if you cant accept me then deal everything without me.

sometimes we have to expect nothing.. so that when God give us everything, we will be happy of appreciating it so much because God gave us what we needed despite of what we wanted.

mr. brother, faris.

2008-11-15T16:51:00.002+08:00

watch my brother berjiwang. haha!

MYOB!

2008-11-15T15:39:00.006+08:00

past midnight, naz and me got a lil quarrel. that idiot was freaking rude and i was really pissed. and yes he did said sorry. i dislike people talking about my relationship, about me. and bcos what he heard from people and all makes me fight with him.

TO ALL THSE FUCKERS OUT THERE;

PLEASE MYOB! THIS IS MY LOVE, MY RELATIONSHIP, MY PROBLEM AND NOT YOURS! I DONT NEED ANY OPINIONS OR SUGGESTIONS ON MY RELATIONSHIP! COS EVERYTHING IS ALL BETWEEN NAZ AND ME! DONT LIKE IT, NOT MY PROBLEM. I DONT OWE YOU ANYTHING, SO WHY ARE SO BUSY-BODY? YOU'RE IN A WORLD TO LIVE AND NOT TO EXIST BEING A KPO FREAK!

and this is for hafizao.

matair yanny yang belikan. LOL!

(action siak yanny!)

nong nong time.

2008-11-14T15:17:00.003+08:00

today was such a bore. i didnt attend school as i woke up late. i was talking to fitri till 3 plus. we bitch and gossips all night long. GIRLS! normal. right fitri? lol.

anyways, i was browsing, bloghopping till i found this girl. luqman's exgf. and she was also naz's exgf's friend. then im like, HAHA! okay? but who cares, im just hopping around to read people's life.

anyway, naz is meeting reza today. damn! reza's mother brought he's laptop to i dont know where. baru nak gambar. dolmat betol! so im not meeting naz today. free for the moment.

bored. can someone bring me out?

2008-11-13T23:44:00.004+08:00

somethings are getting fishier than ever.

When there's no one else, look inside yourself. Like your oldest friend, just trust the voice within.

2008-11-10T23:02:00.002+08:00

poor thing my bestie.

im so sorry reza on what just happen to you.

but i really hope you really moved on.

remember that very day? you were there for me for like the whole day.

if i can, so could you boy.

Oh, my beating heart wants you

And my empty arms need you

Don't you go, please stay

And never try to send me away.

sayang bb!

2008-11-07T10:03:00.004+08:00

sorry for not updating. been buzy lately with naz. lol!

on last monday, naz and me had a really huge fight. the worse nightmare that i thought that both of us gonna break but we didnt. the day that naz prove to me that im his EVERYTHING! what im sure enough is that i havent been feeling regreting giving him second chance. lovelove!

happy belated legal birthday to my dear pepek! (:

If you count all the stars in the sky,all the grains of sand in the oceans, all the roses in the world and all the smiles that have ever been, then you will have a sample of how much I love you.

2008-11-02T13:58:00.003+08:00

LUCKY

Do you hear me,

I'm talking to you

Across the water across the deep blue ocean

Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams

I feel your whisper across the sea

I keep you with me in my heart

You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been

Lucky to be coming home again

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes

Waiting for a love like this

Every time we say goodbye

I wish we had one more kiss

I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been

Lucky to be coming home again

Lucky we're in love every way

Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed

Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea

To an island where we'll meet

You'll hear the music fill the air

I'll put a flower in your hair

Though the breezes through trees

Move so pretty you're all I see

As the world keeps spinning round

You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been

Lucky to be coming home again

I'm lucky we're in love every way

Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed

Lucky to be coming home someday

True love inspires, it doesn't frightened. True love gives strenght, it not take away your courage, it keeps you warm and safe, it cuddles and not suffocates. It helps not restrain a person to move on hopefully and fearlessly.

2008-10-31T23:02:00.002+08:00

tomorrow is our 10 monthsary.

im so glad that we can make it to this far.

like unbelievable.

anyways, ive been more hot-tempered over this few days.

and naz has been very patience with me.

mainly because thats what ive been facing in the past.

maybe the above just want to let him feels how i felt before.

so yes! i love naz more and more. yes! i grew those love feelings on him again.

we've been controlling each other life now.

he just dont like me going out with this guy which i havent plan to go out yet.

that guy was desperately want to lepak with me. as a friend only lah DUH?!

so i told that guy, FAUZAN, that if he wants to lepak with me, must bring amy along.

at least there's a girl right? (:

so naz agreed on letting me slack with that idiot.

i love baby!

naz has been pampering me with OLD CHANG KEE fried chicken wings.

oooooooooooOOOOOOO! my favourite!

im gaining weight now.

( currently, naz and me are not in the mood. as in arguing.)

We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

2008-10-28T21:06:00.003+08:00

a new name for bf; MENTEL.

for this few days, mentel have been so irritating, annoying idiot. haha! i dont know whats wrong with him uh. but i think i still can manage to coach him on not being an irritating fucker. (:

im bored. hungryyyy! haha. actually, for the past days. i ate alot! and i really mean alot! even though im not hungry, i just lantak everything in my mouth. lol! BURRP! just ate mee bandong. lol.

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

2008-10-26T13:55:00.001+08:00

not in the mood to update. i'll make a proper update soon.

2008-10-24T08:12:00.003+08:00

anyway, i got myself a boyfriend. very fast kan? chey! who else if its not nazrul. when farhana rejected his love, suddenly he remembered the times that reza told him how much suffered ive been through. i did told you, i was okay about it and the move on.

i have no more feelings for him. but after he cried and all, i think it was best for me to give him a second chance. and hell yeah! he's performance are doing very well indeed. he get jealous when my classmates disturbs me in class, when some cute boys want to get to know me and all. he started to be more gentle on me and always think of me FIRST!

yesterday was the most funniest and the cutest part of all. it was raining so naz hug me tightly, carried my bag and put his hand cover my head to prevent from the rain. (: si cute tuh ader2 jer tao.

so readers, i know you peeps gonna have question mark on your head. why yanny patched with naz, why yanny gave him a second chance? its all because i always believe that everyone can change for good. it no one accepts him, who will? i also get jealous when i heard stories he kene do this and that. you know!!!

anw,

ajun, yanny pun sayang kan ajun(:

2008-10-19T10:16:00.002+08:00

each and everyday. we always face good and bad terms at the same time. so i always started my day with a good one. yesterday, i went to school for revision with amy. i ended my revisions and straight to aidil's house for mee bandong. his mum's cooks nasi briyani too. finish eating, i ate the kuih raya's. sedap to maximum. besar2 pulak tuhh. 101% guarantee puas hati. haha!

after dealing with the variety of foods, i went to gombak to meet my FELLA's! HELL YEAH I MISS THEM ALOT! especially amin and apit! those boys always drive me crazy. people tend to ask me why i lepak with boys. well? girls are mostly for bitchings, gossipings. boy are more to slacking. best oi! they steam2, i layan them. apit gave me he's leftovers, but i didnt take uh. instead, i just simpan. (reza tak boleh amek! aku bilang naz. kalau kau nak, bayar$10 dulu!)

lepak here there. then got a crush with this 17-year-old boy. freaking tall and cute lah that bukit panjang boy. (: SUKER YANNY SUKER! cos that means every saturday can get to meet him. dont want to reveal his name, later all tell2. i malu. LOL!

at ten, i straight to my bus and went home. i called up reza to check on him and naz took the phone from him and talk to me. GOSH! im freaking sad to hear his stories lahh. as karma hit him not even a month siol. just one week! alamak! terok giler babi. he cried on the phone saying like, i hurt you all. hows me and break up thingy? i was like. arr? okay? lol! then reza's phone getting low battery. so we have to put down. i used my mum to msg him uh.

yg impt jer aku letak. mepek2 not need.

yanny; oi.. r u okay?

naz; da ok siket lah.. kenape?

yanny; dont stress up lah. im not okay with the break up till now. but yet i was strong cos my friends are backing me up. like i said, ure the decision maker in your life. you choose it, you deal with it. okay?

naz; ya u rite.. actually i dun wan u to take stupid stuff bcos of me.. i din mean to end up lyke dis.. im not the pakai buang.. u tink i dun have heart? i just wanna stop all this things.

first pop up on my mind was like? if i really took it also. its not bcos of him. its for the enjoyment. true? to make quite clear. i dont want to marah2 nnt stress lah pulak aku.

yanny; i didnt.. i have brains to think whats right and whats wrong.. okay? we should have stop on june.. u uh! cb knn! haha! u knw if we never do in one month okay tao. then u like.. i dont know lah.. i trusted your sweet words giler pig! hmmph. forgive and forget jer lahh..

naz; i can 4giv 4get.. but seriusly dun get me wrong.. i really not the type.. n plz take very good care of urself.. i dun wanna hear people talk bout you anymore.. dun steam2, mabok2 and dun trust no one. nak enjoy boleh tapi dun over the limit.. be lyke me din take stupid stuff no more..

-_______________________-"

yanny; u nvr take coz u want to proof to her that you change dol.. ape sajer jer lah.. u want to knw which part makes me hate you the most? till now i feel like chopping your head off. you want to knw?

naz; wat? n wat sweet talk? n i dun like sweet talks.?not just to her i wanna proof to all idiots dat noe me i wanna proof.. dai i can change n besabar.. hahaha

kiter tgk jer lah yer bang?

yanny; the 2nd mos day. and the second time you tell shamail about me! >:( give me permission to smack urr face with my bare hands again can? nk step proof kat org konon. then go find work uh dol. before i ask the fat girl to lick2 you again. hahaha.

naz; fuck ah.. mane ader lick reza smbrg jer. u cee after skul. haha.

blablabla

naz; i hear you wanna follow us travel?

yanny; yah, i want to follow. but must wait long2 coz u must finish ur ns first. this reza has been telling the truth to both of us. behind you and me. that black mamba!

naz; hahak.. u just wait 4 2 or 4 years jek. not that long pe.. btw, u sebok ehk? :)

pantat peh budak! aku yang kene sebok. nnt kau!

yanny; haiyah. kalau tak ajak takper. i can tour with someone else. even aidil, amy nak pegi. (:

naz; tak lah.. gurauu jek nak ikot2 je.tap kene tunggu uh ah.. tknk tnggu pegi sendiri. u din slp?

yanny;must wait till i sucessfully find a good job with a good pay then can travel2. lol.. tdo? mayb kjap lagi uh.. u?

naz; i want to slip ah ngantok ah 2mrw we talk again k?

pat nie aku step gila haha!

yanny; dont want uh. why must talk to you? waste time only. haha. alah i bet we neve get to talk tmrw.. nvm, tmrw im going to jln with amy and her friends. see you on monday then?

and nie part, si tetek nie kene kan aku balek.

naz; oh.. ok gd nite.. if kalau ble talk to me ehk bsk.. im sori la penat nari.. btw raye dahbes duit org pon dahbes.. haha bye

-______________________-"

yanny; nvm. syawal 1 month lah belo. nak duit for friday. ada benda. nk tau, tanyer rea. lol. insyallah i msg youtmrw if teringat lor. bye bye teteq kecik.

im going to ZOUK remember? so the tak sabar!

2008-10-19T00:48:00.001+08:00

CONFUSED

2008-10-17T20:42:00.003+08:00

thats dilla, aidil's lover.

aidil, youre getting on my nerve uh erk?! you know, this very morning. i was a bout to stuck in the lift alon thanks to this "SC". -___-" thanks erk dude, aku suker!

so i had my day wasted in bugis with my two deary friends. as aidil wants to survey some laptops and i want to get a new shirt for the upcoming friday. that will be on 24th. going to ZOUK. so very the tak sabar! fadilla bought three clothes and i only one?

eh, i update my template soon uh. not now.. like malas gitu lorr. my language also like lazy to think many2. see ya! (:

2008-10-15T21:18:00.001+08:00

PLEASE! PLEASE! PLEASE! GIVE ME YOUR LINK AND RE-LINK YOU!

aku terdelete everything. pandai kan?!

lazyy.

2008-10-15T20:23:00.003+08:00

i was really stupid to listen to aidil for coming to school. when i reached, a few minutes the class ended. thanks erk aidil, AKU SUKER KAU! at least you were kind enough to buy me ice cream waffle. sayang kau. oh oh! i get to watch WALL E just now in school. cute oi! robots falling in love like wtf! but super cute.

im still sick anyway. no appetite to eat still. cannot eat rice since last thursday. i did not starve myself, i just cannot eat. to let my friends happy, i ate boneless chicken. (siaknyer perot, ayam jer nak. lol) i love you friends. i miss reza and fitri and cassie and naddia and alll!!! like fhdsaujfhsdjanvrhwiun, unexplainable. hahs!

i feel so tired now. not enough rest i guess. sorry erk farhan, paitao!

people, do i really have to find a new partner or give myself a break?

2008-10-14T16:06:00.005+08:00

enjoying the moments being single.

korang nak tahu tak, sebelom member nak balek rumah. he look back at me. aku ader sedih tgk dier sorang2. haiz, i did came over to him uh. and ACT COOL, chey! but member still buat bodoh. so okay, i ignore. and i did cried when the stupid deejay played lagu with you. -____-

but anyway, aku skrg dah STRONG GIRL UH! dah macam WONDER WOMAN uh!

I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme. I hate it, I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it that you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

I really think there's a reason that I like him so much. Like something is telling me not to let him go. Every time I follow my heart... it leads me to him. I mean... what other explanation is there. Why is it that he is all I can think about? Why is it that no matter how upset I am... I see him and I can't help but smile? Why is it that when he smiles at me... I get that feeling in my stomach? And even when he'd broken my heart, and hurt me as much as anyone could ever hurt me... when he lied to me... and I hated him... why then did I still feel those same feelings? Answer me that, and then I'll tell you why I let him hurt me so much.

Now thanks to you...I'm scared to fall in love again. First of all, you broke my heart when I expected you to be the last one to do it. And now I'm left with my heart broken and in pieces and you don't even bother to notice. It's sad because all along I thought you knew me better than everyone else....but now I am starting to wonder if you even knew me at all.

2008-10-12T20:08:00.002+08:00

thought you were the best,
but youre just like the rest.
no! youre worse than them.
nazrul?

whats wrong with you?

1st of june, kiter betol2 nak break ngan bi pasal nightmare kiter. bi kater tuh stakat mainan tidor. but i sense that nightmare might happen. then it really happen. kiter mimpi bi patah balek ngan farhana, then dier antar bi balek rumah. she got my body but i regconise her face. then i went to seat back with my friends, suddenly she was there. out of a sudden taik burong jatoh dekat kiter peh kepala. tuh yg buat kiter malu and nak break ngan bi. at first bi nak.. lepas tuh besok nyer bi taknak. bi pelok kiter, im like wth! i cried and you told me, kiter takmau break kay? so i just give it a try..

after somewhile things became more worse, bi cumer pikir diri sendiri selepas tuh. bi become more and more denial. bi tak bilang kiter aper2 pon. bi tipu smuer. bi kesian tgk kiter nanges selalu, tapi tak pikir keadaan kiter macam maner. thanks to you, i got myself depress and got no appetite to eat. now, im like damn kering already.

you told me, you starting to have feelings for her again, but look. when i ask you since when? you said june. biler kiter mentak, bi taknak. see?! see?! sekarang awak malu kan kiter. awak busok kan namer kiter kat family ngan kawan2 awak. youve been fooling around with my everything. is that how you want to selesai kan masalah?

kalau 1 month kiter tak bikin, okay uh. nie tak last 3 days tao bi. macam maner kiter tak sedih? awak tipu kiter. awak nak berubah, atleast from the very start uh. but look at you?! cant be bothered. gosh!

maybe, it is a good thing to just wish you for the best. and if you think, you need anything, beep me. i tried my best to help. no more fooling around.

imy.

2008-10-10T19:57:00.003+08:00

song in her mind = TAKE A BOW from Rihanna

i cant believe you. how stupid i was to believe that youre willing to change for the best for our relationship. fooling around about my dignity. pretend to care. cant be bothered.

awak selalu malukan kiter depan family awak. kiter tak pernah ader niat jahat untok nak rumit kan masalah kiter berdua. tapi awak banyak kali buat masalah. walau macam maner pon, kiter selalu forgive but i will never forget. biler kiter bagi awak muker, awak pijak kepala kiter. bila kiter ckp pasal farhana, awak kater tak lah.. kiter tak ingat pasal dier pon. awak kejam! awak tipu. i just hope farhana's knows what you did to me. awak tahu ckp awak takkan tinggal kan kiter, tapi awak tgk!

im just making a fool of myself. stupid me listen to someone that has no feelings for me yet i still bother to care about him. WHY? bcos he brainwashed me not to do stupid stuff, taught me this and that. in the end, i still suffer and gain pain from his wrong doings.

why i cant even forget him, why do you bother making a princess for the day on my very 18th birthday? ITS BCOS OF THAT DAY MAKES ME SO DIFFICULT TO FORGET ABOUT YOU!

REZA , FI3. IM JUST CONFUSED!

2008-10-09T13:44:00.003+08:00

i miss those days. i dont want you. i cant believe your love is just a lie. thanks reza. ily .

2008-10-09T00:46:00.000+08:00

sick

2008-10-05T23:58:00.004+08:00

i miss myself and my long hair. ):

2008-10-05T15:00:00.003+08:00

2008-10-04T23:18:00.002+08:00

yesterday, my period came when i was walking with naz in plaza singapura. you know this idiot. when i told him that im having my period, he was expecting me to have his first child in my womb. -.-" seriously, i was really pissed lah. that gila boy!

but actually it was kinda cute lah so that we can get married fast2. lol. he ever did asked before that can we go and get married, then i was like huh? you dont even love me and you want to marry me? further more, he havent even serve his national service. bikin kelakar uh nie datok.

if possible, even my mum want us to get engage. but how? im having problems on how to let him love me again like how he used to. i dont want to break with him. i know, the more im with naz, the more chances ill get to suffer. but everything takes time to heal. i try to give him time and space soon.

bismillahnirramannirahim.

oh god, please bless my relationship with Nazrul bin Bohari. i bet you know how much suffer you've made me in this love. but please, i rather just die then leaving this wonderful boy. i love this boy like how you love me. i really wish that im fated to be with him and only him. oh god, i just hope you're listening to my prayers. amin.

2008-10-04T19:03:00.005+08:00

yesterday night was a blast. naz, reza , their ex-classmate name shamail and me went to mos. but before that naz and me headed to town. the actual plan was catching a movie, instead we want to save money for the club.

while walking to town, naz told me that she messaged him selamat hari rayer. he told me that she msged him first. i told him dont lie. argh! lazy to elaborate about it.

anyway, after we met reza and shamail. ( those idiots were damn late) but its okay, at least i got to spend time with naz for a while. cos we were sitting at clarke quay steps near the river. that place was a memorable place as naz and me first time ton together. we sat there and look at those heros that went to take the ride of the GMAX and the G- SWING? i think uh. lol! back to the story, shamail was kinda like VIP. so we get to go in to the VIP section. best lah. his friend treat us martell. naz and me were got tipsy. only reza dont.i think first timer dont get drunk easily uh.

naz, reza and me dance at the crowded dance floor. we had a lot of fun uh. i get to know this japanese girl name helen, she said she can bring me to VIP section also. i dont know whether its true or not cos she looks drunk. she called reza hand-der-some. very funny her language. we were get to know this caucasion guy name ben. he's cool. but naz dont even understand a word he says cos he speaks to SLANG. hahaha.

got one time the deejay played with you from chris brown. i cry like mad lah. seriously, i miss those times that naz sang to me. but now, everything is falling.

when 5 am already, the mos closed and we went to 7eleven to wait for he first train. but instead, we took taxi home. lol! naz gave me $7 and my fare to home is only $8.50. i just pay $1.50. goooooooood!

oh! naz promise me that he will try his best to be the old nazrul again. you readers are my witness especially REZA!

please listen.

2008-10-03T17:33:00.003+08:00

this early morning, i chat with reza. he cool me down by letting my feelings out. i told him from a-z. he's really a good listener, thats why i love him! ( I REALLY DO OKAY!) he was born witha 50% of a woman's heart. thats why he knows how much ive been suffer myself just for the man i love. reza was our middle man. between naz, that girl and me. at times, i was afraid to let naz stick with reza cos he can get relevant info about her to naz. but i didnt put a blame on him, cos he got no ways to turn. naz is his best buddy. so he have to help him too. but i was really disappointed. i felt unwanted, unappreciated and disrespect. apa lagi dia nak pon aku tak tahu?

maybe a time off will be prefer. but i must think about the consequences too. what if she appear on his life again? dont i feel like a sore loser? dont he see how pure my love towards him? cant he move on like what i did?

he told me before to give him time to forget about her, i did. but it became worse 9 months plus already, no effort making instead doing a homework on how to get back with her. i was unaware of it till he told me this and that. its been two months ive been hurt by his behavior.

i dont want him to get bore by what im doing. i dont want do give up hopes for him. maybe it takes time to heal. but when? till when must i be patient? god bless me please.

i need some advice my dear readers.

2008-10-03T15:10:00.001+08:00

this afternoon, my mum wake me up and wants me to bath. i was damn lazy and she smack my ass with a metal rod. haha. not pain uh, but when i was bathing, i saw 2 lines on my ass. hahahahahahah! cute per!

2008-10-02T17:08:00.004+08:00

bad luck struck at me since august till now. )':

i miss the old you. the one who's always concern in everything i do. the one dont mind whatever i did to you. the one who's always okay in letting me be beside you. 5 months we were okay, but you're different now. kenaper uh selalu gitu?

happy bday mom!

2008-10-01T08:25:00.003+08:00

aku tak tahu lah aper ke jadah aku tulis pasal update aku nie. but maybe, some people have to know.

Naddia, Nadya, Hazy, Lyza, Ikka J; korang cukop kenal dgn lelaki itu.

do you ever wonder why yanny chose to move on from her first love? even though how intelligent he is, how charming he is, how respectful he was...

he was just the best. that was before. mainly because, i deserved it lah somehow. anyway, i was a bitch when i was 16. at that point of time i was still with this wonderful guy. i went out with other boys without him knowing, i make-out with other boys and all. but still I LOVE THAT MAN VERY MUCH! i dont know why.

last year january, my bestfriend was in the hospital. she's like my bestfriend, how can i just ignore her. and because of that, i blew up he's plan of meeting him @ que's bday chalet. it wasnt a heartache cos i thought everythings gonna be back the way it is. but both of us tak nak mengalah and so we really broke up. that part aku merana gila babi punyer uh.

then then, march time. we patch up but dia macam malas-malas gitu. so i dont know what to do, we silent break. then on april time, he wanted me back, i said i dont want because at that point of time i was with this shaik. then he told he wants me before someone touch me. i said someone already did. and then he called me cheapskate girl. i cried the whole night regretting every single thing i did.

around june, we patched back and he USED ME. and so was on AUGUST.

then on november, i turned up on his birthday party in arab street.

on december, after i went bali. i bought his bday gift, i met him in bugis as a friendly meet up lah. at that point of time, i got a feeling that we both gonna get back together. do you think that i should get back with him after 3 times getting ditched? no right. so i finally moved on.

moved on tuh memang moved on. tapi susah lah nak luper kan dier. he's my first love. anyway, lelaki itu kan ader lah..

MUHAMMAD LUQMAN HAKIM BIN RAZALI!

skrg reza, aku pon dah dol samer dgn kau. hahahahah!

2008-10-01T00:47:00.000+08:00

to all my muslim mates. happy raya-ing.

and my bf, happy 9.

2008-09-16T21:02:00.002+08:00

im just hoping he's okay outside. today naz have to go to CMPB and court. i dont know which court he have to go to serve his sentence. i dont even know what he's doing now. im seriously worried. rasa tak sedap hati pon ada. he havent reach home till now. i think. i just want him to be strong as macho as the picture shows. takot aper2 pulsk jadi. what should i do?

(wait! he just call.[:)

update to you later. LOVES!

anw, fitri. ily!

2008-09-15T21:11:00.002+08:00

a night fishing with buddy and boiprank.

anyway, naz and me are back together. seriously, I REALLY NEED TO STOP BEING A FICKLE-MINDED. and boiprank, MAKE SURE YOU MEANT WHAT YOU SAID to proof me that youre a man of your words.

thanks aidil and dilla. you guys are the best!

2008-09-12T16:31:00.002+08:00

so here something new.
Naz and me, we're officially broke up and all. As now he's depending on his dreams. He believe that his dreams mostly came true. I mean De javu. So as i was saying, naz always been dreaming that he's gonna patch up with farhana(the exgf that he loves more than everything). I know he sounds selfish, desperate and mean. I cannot do anything other than praying for his happiness and health. I just wants him to be happy with his decisions. I dont want him to regret like how im feeling now.

Babe, i just wish youre happy like a sweet baby. I love u still. I just try my best to be apart from you. Dont you dare to quit school. I dont knw how to react still. But its ok, its life. Life is always unfair. You cannot just depend on everything as dreams are only mainan tidor. True? But anyway, im always there for you kay? Well? Hope youre happy with everything nw. But you always have your bandmates and brothers beside you so you can always count on them lah kan. Kay?
Take care.

2008-09-09T13:52:00.001+08:00

mayot per??

2008-09-02T20:58:00.005+08:00

im getting irritated by idiots who came by and tagged stupid things about my life. i mean, i dont owe you anything, not even your life. further more, youre just being a sore loser by being an attention seeker. seriously people, go and grab a life. dont just fooling around being exist by doing stupid things. Example; creating a hate tag. it wont make you popular or what. it will never satisfy you. so please mind your own business.

nazrul is my boyfriend and i love him just the way he is. so what if he's ugly, wicked or whatever. what matters is, he love me and accept the way i am. lagipon dia matair aku pe, yang nak mata merah sangat tuh apersal?

i criticize the person i hate cause they did something wrong(ESPECIALLY NUR HANINA & NURUL AIN). if i did anything wrong to you then say it out, rather than being a mean jerk saying things as if your life is perfectly PERFECT! please erk NINI(if that's your real identity), be a woman and tell me the reason why you create a hate tag on my lovely blog. (:

to reza;

your band mates and me are always there for you. just put your past behind and start of something new. a fresh one kay bontot? loves.

2008-09-01T14:46:00.003+08:00

meet reza the bontot. HAHA!

yesterday, went my cousin's wedding. naz tagged along. it was a good day. very good indeed. (: we took alot of pictures. yeah! naz met almost whole of my maternal side of my family. maternal kan? it was a good day. everything was fine. naz have to take the family photo together with the newlyweds at the pelamin. so funny. he was really shy. he planned to walk off by 2 but instead he went off at 5-6. he did get along well with my other cousins.

oh anyway, remember my previous post about nina? yea. she msged naz using internet yesterday. IM LIKE SO PISSED lah fuck. tgh best² main bunga rampai abeh dier msg. macam dier salah msg orang gitu. padahal². i mean, bitch! youre using internet to msg my NAZRUL. you still have the guts to type out his number and your NAME on the msg? naz was like buat bodoh jer lah. he plan to change his number soon so that the bitch wont msg him again. hoooray!

so anyway after a walk from toapayoh to bradell. we went seperate ways. i told him that im always worried about where he goes and all. DUH! hahaha. after he broad the bus, he msged me this;

darlin..takmo risau psal kite k..every sngle sec. i'll luv u..ni bkan swit talk dis cum frm de bottom of my anus..hahahaha:-D

.______________________.

so anyway to all my fella muslim mates, happy fasting. (:

and to my dearest bf.

happy eigth to us.

and many many more to come. love!

2008-08-30T14:24:00.003+08:00

nice right the dress?
but doesn't suit me. ):

last friday was the most fucked up day ever, i dont wish to elaborate lah kan. anyway, that nina on the other hand was really ARGH! really angry with that mtf bitch.

anyway, naz and me are in good terms now. alhamduliah. seriously, i just wish we stay on like this forever. just dont go over or under.

so yesterday i got a conversation with babe in his room. an irritating one.

Naz; darlin kalau nak tahu sebernarnyer kan. kiter dah kenal2 ngan 3 pompan.

i was really STUNNED!
naz came to me and hugged me then continued.

Naz; tapi kiter tak buat aper2 kenal jer.

i was about to cry. naz carry on with..

Naz; tapi kalau siape2 percaya memang bodoh.
yanny; -.-"

baik pe ni nabei?

hahahahahahhahahahahahahahhahahahhahahaha!

2008-08-21T16:00:00.002+08:00

my bloody naz. i tell you.
dead irritating lah kan. he went to put this bitch that likes him as his featured friends in friendster. and then he went to change his password. haha! tahu takot, tahu bagi jugak his password to me. lame oi! anyway, he always want to make me jealous by using this girl. MEH-SINI-MEH buat lagi, aku bagi kau satu penumbok! irrit fuck!

im like so whatever lah with that girl. -.-"
you know lah those types of girls who always want to act CUTE! macam lah cute sngt gitu. ah.. gitu la dia amek gambar. HAHAHA!

yanny, pat mengutok number 1. LOL!

2008-08-20T14:10:00.001+08:00

im back with my boyfriend you stupid red eye bitch.

2008-08-16T20:34:00.001+08:00

love is so very the damn blind.

and we're still together.
envy?

2008-08-13T18:14:00.001+08:00

we're gonna be over and done.
thanks for all the curse people.

2008-08-12T22:35:00.001+08:00

amaciam? hahahahmiss me. call me, ooopps! PREPAID LOW.hahahhahah. bye!

2008-08-08T14:32:00.001+08:00

those gay boys. well girls? are they turning you on?!
better not!

2008-08-08T07:54:00.002+08:00

lynaina, nah update nie. LOL!

FYI, aku tgh maen computer curik2 nie uh.

i wonder why my parents nowadays. irritating. dont wish to cook, dont let me play the computer, dont wish to give my pocket money. just because, i didnt turn up for school, i go home late and all lah. okay, ada pergi ada balik erk?

so thats why i got my own superhero.

the one who never fail to support me. who's been there all this while. the ex-bfs is so not better than him. nyaha!

last saturday i met cassie and gave her advance bday gift. just afraid that i might not gonna meet her on the actual date of her bday.

and look. besoknyer kakak aku nie dah pakai buat date ngan abg afiq. LOL!

and i hope you like it kak(: